Category Archives: Thoughts for Actions

Bring cash 1966-2016

Old school. Ounces and paper, bring cash. New school. Milligrams and delivery systems, bring cash. in my wheelchair in the back of our van, Sheila driving,  a vinyl guy in a streaming world.  I’d been hesitant. Looking at the web … Continue reading

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My Diagnosis-Part II

Three years later, in 1982, on a blazing hot summer weekend, my wife, my children (then ages eleven and eight), and I climbed down an embankment toward a small lake in the White Mountains of New Hampshire. Shockingly, I could … Continue reading

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The Bumpy Cart

“Life is suffering,” the Buddha stated as the first of the Four Noble Truths. The Pali word he used for suffering, dukkha, has its roots in the term for a cart’s axle badly fitted to a misaligned axle hole. The … Continue reading

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My Diagnosis 1979-Part I

This is how I remember it. On a spring day in 1979, I left my car at a local service station for a minor repair. As I walked three-quarters of a mile home, I noticed that I stumbled as the … Continue reading

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For it is not just we, the ill, who are responsible for our experience of illness…

When we judge ourselves or our loved ones to be ill enough to seek medical advice, we are usually prepared to place ourselves in the hands of another to receive care and be relieved of what worries and ails us. … Continue reading

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It is what it is and it’s not

Ambiguity is a major part of living with any chronic illness. In the earliest years of my illness. It shook me up quite a bit when I would awaken at 2 or 3 or 4 in the morning unable to … Continue reading

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Are there songs for which you weep?

Greed comes in many forms. We most often think of it as an unnecessary desire for “too much” material acquisition. Of course, we can be greedy for anything-sex, power, knowledge. Among the Christian seven deadly sins, it is differentiated from … Continue reading

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Schadenfreude…an assassin’s blade

One of the most wonderful words to describe an emotion that is so poorly thought of by every tradition is schadenfreude. To my ear, it sounds onomatopoeic, a gentle hush with a chilling twist at the end, like an assassin’s … Continue reading

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Amazing grace

Defense mechanisms are among the most useful and, literally, the most dangerous aspects of our way of being in the world. A few we are most familiar with as a result of our own self observation, psych 101, or the … Continue reading

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Acedia, sloth, and the new lift

Monks and followers in most spiritual traditions are warned against the fault of laziness least it lead to the greater fault of what is called in Christian writings, acedia, one of the seven deadly sins. Acedia, sometimes called sloth, is … Continue reading

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